My stance on smoking after being pregnant.
I am not ashamed to say that I was a heavy smoker before I had my daughter. I liked smoking cigarette for various reasons but now that I look back on it, I think the ultimate reason why I smoked was because I liked to play with my smoke. I was the smoker that would credit cigarettes to saving lives vs. taking them. My motto was: “Let me smoke this tobacco so that I can calm my nerves and save a life AMAN JESUS!” I didn’t care about any negative backlash that came along with smoking. I didn’t care about health insurance costs, stigma, or cancer. When I got pregnant, all of that changed.
Before I found out that I was pregnant, I would go on break a couple of times at work and go smoke a cigarette. When my daughter was the size of a sweet pea, I noticed that cigarettes began to taste differently. I would go to the designated smoking area and leave shortly afterwards only taking 3 or 4 pulls out of a fresh Newport. I remember one day, a friend of mines was at work smoking with me. I finished my few little pulls right after I lit up. I put the cigarette out after I frowned up my face and said, “Cigarettes just don’t taste good anymore, why am I still smoking.” My friend looked at me and said, “You’re pregnant.”
During the course of my pregnancy, I didn’t have any problems with morning sickness however, cigarette carried an odor that almost made my eyes water. All I could think is, “What is that?” and “Oh God, I used to smoke that?!” They smelled like hott feet roasting in a bonfire. I never noticed a strong scent when I was the smoker. Now that my daughter is here, I still don’t have the desire to smoke cigarettes. I can honestly say that I am enjoying life without the chest pains (my constant chain smoking did that. That was something I would never admit to back them) and the need to brush my teeth every 5 minutes.
I even pay attention to the anti smoking commercials on television now. Before, these commercials used to offend me. I didn’t want anyone telling me that my choice to smoke tobacco was killing me. I knew the risks and I didn’t want a constant reminder of that. Now, it’s easier to watch. I actually pay attention now instead of changing the channel. One commercial said that cigarettes carry 4,000 harmful chemical in them. Now I question what exactly is a cigarette… I thank God I got out of this disgusting habit.