Meet Baby’s Godparents
I‘d be telling the biggest lie in the world if I said that my pregnancy was planned or a pleasant surprise when I first found out. This pregnancy came at the craziest time in my life. I was at a point where I knew I was capable of getting more out of my life experience. This baby was the beginning process of me getting that structure and balance that I had prayed for months prior. I had the beautiful loft apartment in the city. I worked fulltime and paid all of my own bills but at the end of the day, I was not truly happy. I did not know how quickly God would answer this prayer and at what cost. This process wasn’t peaches and cream. There was no simple, overnight solution. The truth is it was painful.
Not knowing that God was giving me what I prayed for, he sent me two people in my life to guide me away from losing my mind. When I found out that I was pregnant, I lost everything: My job, apartment, rocky relationship (based on an ugly lie that I later came to discover), and part of my independence. All of these things were all taken away from me at a finger snap. For the first time in a long time, I was stripped of everything. The only thing that I could do was sit back, listen, and breathe.
I’ve always been smart and quick on my feet but after all that I endured in the beginning, I was really ready to give up. I know what it feels like to be pushed to the point of having absolutely no hope at all. There are so many of us who have reached this point and self destructed by taking matters in our own hands. Rest in Peace to those who didn’t make it… My pregnancy has proven to be a blessing despite the fact that I took the news like, “Are you kidding me”? I began removing the non-asset people out of my life and the people that I couldn’t removed myself were all removed for me. In some situations, this hurt like hell. Out of that hurt, new people, hope, and inspiration surfaced. I was given a new pallet to start painting a fresher, happier picture on.
Both Stacy and Jelani Wilson have been with me ever since I found out about baby Evelyn. It’s crazy to say this but they may have loved her more than I did in the beginning. I started this pregnancy in a very spiritually broken place. I remember not being able to eat and I couldn’t go a day without crying. They have stood by me through my raging hormones and doctors appointments. They have answered questions, They have brought God back into my life and they have shown me that even though, I may have been spiritually broken before, I do not have to continue to be that way. It is my choice. Light can pierce through any kind of darkness.
If something were to ever happen to me, I completely trust these two individuals with my daughter. That’s what the role of a God parent is all about. I thank God everyday for them. I remember being very nervous when I first asked them to be her God parents. To be honest, if they would have said “No”, Evelyn wouldn’t have God parents. I do have other friends that I could have chose from but the Wilson’s were the one. I can’t wait for her to meet them.