Childbirth feels like….
Nearing the end of my pregnancy, I honestly just got tired of being pregnant. I was tired of constantly having to urinate, the hormones were doing a MAJOR number on me, and most of all, I really wanted to see the little monster that had transformed my life. I still could not believe that I decided to go through with the adventure of mommyhood. I knew that the pregnancy was just a small piece of the grand picture. The life that was growing in my womb would have to make an exit one day soon and then the real adventure would begin…
It started on Monday morning of September 9, 2013. I just wasn’t feeling well that morning. I called my doctor’s office and spoke with the nurse that afternoon. After I informed her of my symptoms and the baby’s decline in movements, she recommended that I go to Labor and Delivery to be checked out. Later on that evening I went in and was admitted. I thought that Ev’s arrival would be a little more dramatic then this. The movies made it seem so different than what it actually was.
After monitoring me on a machine for half an hour, the doctor decided to induce my labor. M daughter’s heart rate dropped low for two minutes straight that was reason enough for them to induce. I was afraid and alone. I prayed and asked for a healthy baby and a smooth delivery. I didn’t know how the process of childbirth was going to change me but, I knew I wouldn’t walk away from this hospital as the same woman that I was before I was admitted. The arrival of Baby Evelyn was going to be a long one. It was ten o’clock that night. I remember thinking, “it’s happening”. I went from triage to the delivery room.
It wasn’t until about 4 o’clock the next day that the doctor decided to break my water. By that time, I had dilated to 5 centimeters. I felt a little bit better because I wasn’t alone. One of my best friends, Saytue say of www.saytuesatewhat.com came to be with me along with my aunt and cousin. Saytue kept me company and helped ease my nerves. Within an hour after they broke my water, it happened…. I felt the biggest Du-Du of my life coming rapidly and I couldn’t do anything to stop it. I didn’t have time for an epidural (Thank you God) even though the pain was getting so bad that I was screaming for one. When they broke my water, my little girl was ready to be here in no time. The doctor and nurses barely got their “gear” on fast enough. I was already pushing.
After my experience, I define the feeling of childbirth as:
“The worse case of constipation that you will ever have in life. The only difference is that the mass that you are pushing out doesn’t come out of the back, it exits out of the front. “
After pushing out my daughter, I feel that there is nothing that I can’t do. I now understand why it is left up to the woman to endure the pain of growing and pushing out that new life. I don’t look at it as a punishment from God for what Adam and Eve did. Childbirth is only something that a woman can handle. I got what I prayed for. I asked for a smooth delivery and a healthy little girl. Not only did I get that but she came out screaming and peeing at the same time. She truly made a unique arrival into this crazy world. My hope is to be a good mother and to grow and evolve from this blessing that I have the honor of receiving. I still cannot believe that I am a mom. Evelyn is almost two weeks old now and I still cannot stop glowing. This little girl has made me so happy. I can honestly say that I have experience true joy.